Today was such an emotional day! I can't believe Endsley is going to be a year old in a short month. I keep telling myself that we have all of this time left but when I look back - this year has FLOWN by. Of course this next month will go just as fast as the others. I'm so happy with how my baby girl is growing by the minute but I wish, so very deeply wish, that I could press pause. Or rewind. Something! I keep hearing "just have another" but we're happy with our little family. And even if we did have another, that baby wouldn't replace Endsley. My very first born, growing up. It brings tears to my eyes.
All I want in the whole world is to be able to go back to when she was a newborn and do it again. I would in a heartbeat.
Birthday planning and crafting have taken over my life. The next month I know I will be a slave to it until it all gets done. It has seriously cut out any other hobbies I may have had. But it's fun and there's a thrill that comes over me when I find something else I can use at her party or finish a craft. I can't wait to put it all together. Part of me also can't wait for it to be over. It's so stressful! I joke that next year, Endsley will be lucky if she has a cake.
So Endsley, here's your part. What have you been doing this month?
For one, YOU SAID YOUR FIRST WORD! It was "hi" and it was the best greeting I
have ever received from anyone, ever. I love hearing you say hi! I could
listen to it all day long. And I do.
You love Sesame Street. It is easily your favorite show. Now that we've moved the TV out of the living room and into our bedroom, your eyes are GLUED to the screen when I turn on your favorite show for you.
You kiss me awake. I feel you when you wake up, but sometimes I just don't want to open my eyes quite yet! Well you take care of that by kissing me on the lips and giggling until I open my eyes. You also pat my cheeks to insure that I am aware of your presence.
You love sticking your hands in the toilet. It is one of your favorite things to do. I dare say that it even rivals Sesame Street. We've had to learn to shut the lid after we use the restroom. Otherwise I find you "washing your hands" in the bowl.
You climb into my nap and burrow your head into my chest when you want to nurse. You demand boobs!
You love to dance! Any music that comes on, even if its a commercial or my ring tone, you start dancing! I love it.
You stick your feet up to help put shoes and socks on.
You learned to climb... you climb the oven door. You climb onto the couch. You climb onto the ottoman. EVERYTHING. It scares the crap out of me.
Well Little Miss, you officially wear 12 month clothes exclusively. You still wear a size 3 diaper. You are 18 lbs and 8 oz as of April 27, 2012 and 29.5 inches tall.
I'm so looking forward to your birthday party.
Love you,
Mama
